All month I have been trying to decide what to write. Michael is scheduled to transfer to a halfway house November 8th. All is in order and he sounds so upbeat and is understandably ready to leave Pensacola. But as the days count down, my anxiety ramps up. I will get to see him for a little bit to give him the documents he needs for his check-in. It will be 8 months since I drove him to Pensacola. My head is crowded with "what ifs" and worry that he will be so changed that he will not need or want me, or that there may not be room for me in the new life he wants to build. (Cue Beatles, "When I'm 64") So I am trying to send those self-doubts away and hope that if you have a minute on Tuesday, November 8th, that you will think of us and pray. I am holding onto the plan I know God has for me and sometimes it is just barely. But God is faithful in His promises even when and especially when I am weak. I am excited about the positive changes Michael has made and am in prayer for the new challenges he will face in his new beginning at the halfway house. And I am focusing on 1 Peter 5:6-7: "Humble yourself, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that He may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you." (NIV) So if you hear me singing, "I cast all my cares upon You, I lay all of my burdens down at Your feet, And anytime I don't know just what to do, I will cast all my cares upon You," know that I am believing it too. (Don't you just love the oldies but goodies worship songs! I love the contemporary ones too but wished churches would bring some of the ones I grew up on back!)
Have a great end of October!
Heidi
