As I write this it is exactly to the hour one week since we left Michael in Pensacola. The beginning of the trip home was sad but by the halfway mark (a little side trip through Montgomery, AL to find I-85 again!) it became more about knowing that we will both be able to come through this better than we were when we began. I owe a great deal of this feeling to my father who happens to be an excellent road trip buddy. He is able to help you find the positive in any situation and can find humor in anything even taking a wrong turn. ("At least we are going in the right direction still," my Dad reasoned. "And it gives us time to enjoy our food.") Also he has some great ideas about what your GPS really thinks and wants to say when you do not follow its directions and it has to recalculate.
I know I will be able to handle this upcoming year not because there is something amazing about me but that I can rely on God and share my burden with others. I have been more on the "willing to help others" side and have found it difficult to accept the same help. I am learning and hopefully doing so graciously. I subscribe to a daily email devotion and this morning's verse was "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He care for you. 1Peter 5:7." What a perfect thing to read. The devotion went on to describe a person who had a personal tragedy and became closer to God. I wanted to share this from the author:
"He is the first to admit that despite his independence in life, spiritually he is more dependent on God than ever, and it's a gift. Desperate dependence is where you surrender not to the circumstances or the loss, but to God. Author Max Davis says, 'Desperate dependence is the place where we can stop living by our own power.' It's where we discover God's strength in and through us."
Thank you again for letting me share my burden with you and lifting me up!
Heidi
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